Here We Go!!!

After telling my therapist to call me on my BS, she gave me a good butt kicking. Since ADHD keeps me from focusing on one path, my therapist told me to pick one thing. So, here it is, my new thing. The thing I want to do when I grow up. I started my spiritual journey a little over 7 years ago and I want to focus on growing through that journey.

Teaching is an honorable job, but it almost took me out. Teaching band and orchestra at the middle school level is not for the weak. I was battling discipline issues, apathetic students, and the brutal schedule that is required to manage two programs. I was burnt out and those students deserved better.

I got a new job as a computer science teacher at the high school level where I taught half the day and did IT for the building the other half. It was great until it wasn't. COVID hit. I think I have been practicing for that lock down all my life, but the rest of the world wasn't. Students didn't show up to virtual classes and all social skills went out the window. We recovered, got back to school for a couple of years then a heartbreaking issue developed at my school. I tried to stand up for what I believed in while wondering who the heck I was. I'm an introvert. I can go days without talking to other humans. I do not like conflict. Yet, there I was speaking at school board meetings and standing up for my colleagues. It was hard. I was spent. I decided to retire.

I have always been interested in spirituality. I was always kind of "weird" and found I had a deep inner knowing of there being something more. I knew I was probably going to retire soon, so I took my Reiki level I and II in the summer of 2023. I figured I would start there and see where it took me.

I went to a retreat in St. George, UT during spring break of 2024 and I found my path. A couple of trips to Sedona, a mentorship with a spiritual coach, a meditation practice, and that therapist that kicked my butt, lead me to what I will do when I grow up. It's all new and makes me nervous, but I know I can hold sacred space for other people. What could be better than that?